but one of my favorite blogs just shared something difficult and so I figured if she can I can.
Its a complicated situation. But let me just say that I hated Mothers day this year.
Normally I do not mind it, I actually kind of like it. You get some candy at church and Robert gets me something and tells me I will be a great mother some day.
How he knows I am going to be an amazing mom.
he wrote me a letter.
It was long.
I thought it would help make me feel better but it did not.
At church I saw all the families sitting in rows. Their children on their laps. I cried.
How much I want that.
My sister in law is visiting and well, I asked Robert to take them, so we could sit with them. At least they are family, and I could feel a little more like a mother, although I am only an aunt.
To all of you mothers, does it just feel so wonderful to hold your baby? A baby that you helped create? Is it just so amazing and wonderful? I bet it is. I also bet at times its hard and difficult to see the positive when they are screaming all hours of the night but
just remember you are so blessed. God has intrusted to you that tiny baby, some are wishing they had too.
I know someday I will be a mother. Whether its through adoption or not I will have children.
I want six
I already have their names picked out.
I just want it so badly its hard to have a positive perspective some times. But Sunday I had a real downer moment and I just had to share.
These thoughts made me realize something.
That we SHOULD NEVER judge anyone.
Because you may have no idea how badly they want the things you think they are trying not to have.
I understand how you feel! Even though I do have a child now, I was where you are 2 years ago. It is so true that judgement should not be passed on people! I think that happens far to often for young couples - especially in the LDS "community". Hang in there! Everything works out eventually!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel! One day, we will be the ones sitting in church with our children. It's just a matter of trusting Heavenly Father's timing. It will come (at least that's what I keep telling myself).
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